WEEK 2 — I AM A PRO

As I look back at these first 2 weeks of the MKMMA I have noticed something that seems to have gotten stronger over the course of time. When I try to trace it back to its origin it takes me back all the way to my earliest childhood years, my schooling years to be exact, and I know I am not alone. I do not know how many people have what some would call a character trait but I can’t stand it and it drives me nuts but for some reason it keeps fighting to survive and not let go of its grip on me. I am talking about Procrastination. I have always been proactive when it comes to activities that I want to do, but when it comes to things that I should do or things I know I need to do I procrastinate in doing them. Never the less these last 2 weeks have put me in a twixt. There is nothing more that I want than to finish these next 24 weeks of MKMMA but here in lies the conundrum. Since January of this year I have looked forward to the MKMMA starting up again and now that it has I am struggling with the assignments and being consistent with them, not because it is hard or time consuming but rather that I already know what to expect from them. Because of this knowledge my old blueprint of procrastination is kicking into overdrive. My mind is saying you know this because you have done it lets just skip and wait for whats new but at the same time I know I can’t do that. Luckily going through this has been beneficial because I have realized there are some things that have sunk in and also brought to light others that I need to address in order to make my DMP a reality. We live in a society or world that seems to FEAR change because change upsets our norm or comfort that we have. I am not immune to this disease of the mind but I am learning to embrace change and welcome it, its just that the me deep down inside hasn’t gotten the message yet and is fighting for its life to survive. In the next 24 weeks I will have succeeded in putting to death the old blueprint in my mind and created a new one that I live my life of bliss and dharma. At the end of week 26 and most importantly whenever my life on earth is done I can echo the words of the Apostle Paul in 2Tim. 4:6-8 where he says “for I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing.”

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2 thoughts on “WEEK 2 — I AM A PRO

  1. Brian, you are not alone but beside saying DO IT NOW out loud twice a day may I recommend a video by Bob Newhart called Stop It. Remember this is your old self talking and you have let go of that person so no reason to go there. Go luck with this journey. I look forward to reading your next blog post.

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